* basically all of Ecclesiastes 3 in one word.
It wasn't quite the time yet.
To find the right words - just the right ones.
Landlope from 2010 wasn't really 'landlope'. It was more to persist... Hide to some extent and persist. Being living-dead.
Walkers - hills walkers - from 2020 all around my old patch around The Black Mountains, do not do hyperbole. Living dead is not an overstatement.
(stoically would be an inappropriate word - there is living dead and chin up.. they are different)
Moving 10 miles in 2013 - to a most reclusive spot, though with a sidekick ( a small literary novel in and of itself alone) it became crawl back to life bit by bit..
2015 but 17 really from that january it became something new - alone from January 16 there was purpose, but into 17 it was about one thing only, and the fact of the matter is that ALL 'walkers' are ALLways pro EU - internationalist...
So, up in the hills around Herrock hill (on Offas Dyke path where i lived) , in a second full 'grief' in a decade i began a 'purpose': Though usually i would only encounter one walker every other day, i would strike up conversation about their REAl feelings about 2016...
To chronicle opinion and also find fellowship...affinity... fellow good spirit.
Despite them..(down below in the valleys - West herefordshire particular BREXITY dinosaur mentality...i could not even share my lament as the local bully boys would sneer)
And thus i began a planned 'chronicle' of those conversations on the hills... with walkers often walking the whole of The Dyke.
But 2020 came along and...
Living so far aside it made no difference to my own life in fact i adored the quiet and that year became fitter than i had ever been in my whole life - many more km walking a week... all year. And the next...
But...and this is what i was waiting for.
Landlope ..is aside... the whole point is one is momentum energised (no not by 'journey') by...
It is not being dragged down by mere mortal moaning ways nor concerns...
But why bother achieving that mode? What is the point. To merely achieve meditative goodmind and great fitness balance and endurability..is selfish.
I am a silly fool who..
Well lets just say that i think one of the best movies this century is the French film Intouchable a ridiculously 'life affirming' film.
And my favourite book, Georgie girls Silas.. again - life AFFIRMING...
(many good European literture books can be found at leftovers2022.blogspot.com
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/ that have life affirming twists at the end)
DONT LOOK IF YOU JUST FOUND ME..or i found you. Thing is...
landlope was always TO persist for a reason..if a miracle happened, and...
But there was no way it could.. the odds were literally one in a million... and i don't believe in fairy tales or Disneyland... and long ago lanlope in the persist mode was to entirely accept the WORST that life could dish up... accept it and face up to it in its worst version. Which was almost inevitable.
But... just this last month. In fact last fortnight...
let's just say i don't like books when people die at the end.. even if that is reality.
But... now something that i KNEW was unfixable, is.. (there is a last page elsewhere that has the story if the bristol ladies nose in email me for it.. if you want)... you the reader or maybe it needs to be multi 'media' can actually hear it...fixed.
But there is a twist..and it is even better than Intouchables..i know that..i know culture.
Good for me.
But only today this dusk it occurred to me i need one last chapter.
A chapter actually for me...
I know i can write a better book than Richard Maybe or Helen Hawk Macdonald...
And really do know good poetry.
Can even write some occasiionally.
But i need one thing more - somehow to weave in someone else's story into this...
I thought it was her in fact (pic today)
But i guess not...
today i met a woman who knew of my favourite word - saudade..
But the REAl meaning (i have done much research) is hiraeth+
my first 7 years from 2010 was landlope..
the next 7 landlope+
saudade is hiraeth+ in that saudade is hiraeth..(a dead word about only the past) .
" but it [the goodness you lament lost] is not necessarily finished yet."
meaning, you can get 'it' back..if you maybe fight for ..it..her.... whatever
i need to...saudade would be i guess ALSO finding someone who somehow wants to just add something in...
In fact also i was pondering...so so few 20-25 year olds does one see walking...is there some way one could guide them into...our mode..??
\within a book? Not a guide book a book on not how, but why.. they may.
That, i need guidance on...
landlope mode now becomes a tad less momentum unfortunately as i have yo hustle quiet workingspace to just maybe write this as elegantly as ....she ... deserves
which is almost impossible in Cornwall as i never meet anyone living here who knows what zen peace and inner centeredness are...
despite half of them trying to monetise it...so as to afford the rip off prices everywhere
